I remember only this:
8th task
We were in the house my Maya Nagual assigned to me. The house has three rooms, each empowered with Silent Knowledge of the arts of dreaming, non-being, and stalking, respectively.
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The Nagual looked at me and his eyes shone with a deep light. He was standing in front of me, my lovely nagual woman was standing to my left. I was completely aware that I am in a different realm from the Earth, in a total Maya world in dreaming.
What happened is difficult to put into words.
As strange as it sounds now, I died. Total identity collapse happened. Every fiber of my nagual dreaming body, every aspect of my inner dynamics and everything else within and without became the totality of Awareness.
And the identity of this stalker and a student of the great Mayan seers was just gone. Nothing and nobody remained. Complete fusion of awareness with everything else. Awareness itself was self-aware, self-liberating, non-arising and eternal. No identity remained, none at all.
The presence of my Maya nagual counterpart was an obviously important element of the whole ritual, for it became crystal clear:
that's the stage of awareness that the Maya seers attained long ago and their All-good-intent has contributed to reorienting and upgrading, as it were, my limited nagual dreaming awareness.
9th task
We went from the 'Art of dreaming room' into the middle one, the room of the 'Art of non-being'.
As the Nagual opened the door and stepped in he just disappeared. Blackness inside the room just swallowed his dreaming body. The same happened with my nagual pair, A.
I could comprehend that they did not stop being, just their form was no more.
Being in the dreaming state in the nagual body, there were no limiting emotions or mental obstacles, so prevalent in everyday life. My awareness was sharp and clear.
I stepped in and everything went completely black. Black not as in color black, but black as in total disintegration of identifications on all levels of my awareness. The awareness itself ceased to, well, be.
The attainment of the 8th task of Maya dreaming has been full of awareness, integrating all possible aspects of dreaming into the totality of awareness. Now, however, all of that awareness was just gone, disappearing in the blackness of non-being. Total release from the fullness (and thus limit) of awareness. Complete freedom from the duality of perception and from the need of shifting and moving the assemblage point.
The non-being is complete freedom from everything anyone can think of. That's what the Spirit with its Intent is made of: nothing.
Nothing even beyond the so-called third attention...
Freedom
Something in that free omnipresence of nothingness moved and 'I' reappeared outside the house in my nagual dreaming body. Everything was sharp, the vision was crystal clear and awareness heightened as never before.
'Let's go", I heard the Nagual say, pointing with his right arm towards the third room.
A. joyfully opened the door and invited us in. Her eyes were shining and she was beautiful as always, clearly aware of what transpired in the first two rooms.
We went in and my Nagual said that there is no need to visit distant universes and other total realms, for the Spirit is present everywhere.
"Its Intent is manifested as energy formations that we can see anywhere: on Earth, here or in your Golden Maya City", he smiled at A.
"For many of us, building total worlds in our dreaming outside the Earthly existence, was a necessary operation. Your Maya Lineage of seers has accomplished marvels.", he again smiled at A.
"The real accomplishment, however, is to light up the awareness to its total expression and moreover, to turn it off, so to speak, by directly experiencing the non-existence of the Spirit."
"The movements and shifts of the assemblage point (AP) are welcomed, of course, but overrated nevertheless. These maneuvers, as magical as they are, are just a matter of geography."
I comprehended everything he was saying directly as if he was transmitting his Silent Wisdom directly into my awareness.
"It is a fact that some beings are not aware of the totality of their non-being and because of that, they are still not completely free."
"What do you mean by freedom?" I asked.
"Freedom from dependence on anything apart from the non-existing Intent, which is empty."
"Intent equals Spirit", I said with complete certainty.
"Yes!", excitedly almost sang A. even before Nagual opened his mouth.
Nagual again looked at her and smiled: "You two really are in sync..."
He continued: "Sorcerers first learn the art of stalking and dreaming to redistribute their personal energy with the aim of freeing their perception.
When their dreaming skills are growing, the sorcerers integrate impersonal energy into their awareness and bodies. That can be done by visiting the friendly realm of inorganic beings."
He paused for a few moments.
"Some of the old sorcerers have been caught roughly around that stage of development by our low energy non-organic friends. Their self-importance ran all too deep for them to let go of their indulgence. They were superb but superficial masters of energy manipulation and they forgot about awareness itself. And they were easy targets of inorganic beings."
A. and I looked at each other, sharing a thought.
"Yes, you two did not stop there", quickly said the Nagual, as if reading our minds.
Looking at me he said: "You went to great lengths to integrate both inorganic and organic energy, working with both dark and light beings."
"Actually, that was not such a bad, if dangerous path, to travel on.", he added.
"Maya, of course, went way beyond the reach of both inorganic friendly and dark beings.", said Nagual, again smiling at A.
"We united with the Lights from the Stars", she said, pointing her right hand upwards.
"Yes.", he continued, "A lot of energy is needed to move whole civilization to a new total world. And Maya did it."
"But still, there is freedom and there is freedom. If there is no depth of awareness, indulgence prevails, self-importance takes the main role, and that, for me and my Lineage, is not freedom."
"Sorcerers that depend on the low-level inorganic beings are prisoners of that level of existence or worse:
some are actually pretty close to what the human mind labels as dark. For me, that is not freedom, either."
"Black, manipulative death defiers?", I said.
"Yes."
He looked at A.:
"And then we have the grand seers of the Maya people.", he continued.
"As mighty and powerful as they were, and although immortal, some were not free as I understand freedom."
"Feared by the dark death defiers and by almost all other aware beings as well, some were depending only upon the Lights from the Stars", he said, looking at A., not smiling this time.
"True", she said, calmly, obviously easily handling the Nagual's critique of the people she leads.
"Freedom I am talking about", he said with a serious tone, "is being deeply aware of the nature of everything as it naturally is. And you can't move your AP into that awareness as it is the ground reality. The Spirit or Intent is that natural reality, beyond the shifts and movements of the AP.
Let me put it this way: the totality of awareness is where every single shift or movement of AP takes place. All different positions of AP are still based on the duality of perception. The Spirit, however, is non-dual."
We both understood.
"The last task of dreaming, therefore, is mastered after a dreamer has directly and empirically validated what Spirit or Intent really is and when he or she starts to integrate that empirical wisdom into whatever he or she perceives."
At that moment I began to experience what Nagual was explaining to us.
The 'blackness' or emptiness of awareness, the total absence of any kind of identification, started to be recognized in the elements of current perception.
AP moved easily, by only slight intent, and I started to perceive the Maya total world, the Golden City, where my A. dwells. I started to recognize the 'emptiness' there as well.
I say 'I', but there is no one there, here, anywhere. Only Spirit that itself is non-existing.
Me, my loved ones and friends on Earth, the four Maya allies, friendly inorganic beings, dark and other death defiers, demons and angels I worked with, the god-forms my Maya Lineage of seers have integrated into their awareness, other god-forms I know, the Nagual and my nagual pair - all are just images in the mirror that is the Spirit, itself forever free from the mirror images themselves. Beyond light and dark. Untouched by any kind of shift or movement of AP. Beyond both reasoning and seeing. Beyond everything - that indeed is freedom.
After a while, I found myself again in my room with the Nagual and A. looking at me with beaming eyes.
"Now go and integrate this into your existence, both of you.", he said, smiling broadly.
