I woke up in some unrelated dream, energized the
dreaming body and connected to 'dreaming emissary'.
The feeling changed a bit as a gentle wave of energy hit me and I started my usual drill:
Are you an inorganic being (IB)? Yes.
Are you a dark death defier? No.
Are you a demon? No.
Angel? No.
Dark Djinn/flyer? No.
Are you IB from the realm Nek-tsha? Yes.
(in one of the previous dreaming sessions, I insisted that emissary comes clean about the name of their realm. Quite a story in itself there.
Anyway, 'Nek-tsha' is supposed to mean 'continuously/forever reposed, solid, unmoving', according to the dreaming emissary)
You are not to speak unless spoken to.
You are not to start a conversation with me on your own, ever.
No comments on my thoughts.
You speak only when I ask you questions, both here and in the waking state.
You speak only to answer my questions, clearly and in short.
Ok? Yes.
Also, you are not to shift or move my AP without me intending it, ever!
Ok? Yes.
Do I make myself clear?
Indeed.
By now, after all these questions, the dream is stable and clear. And I am sure what/whom I'm dealing with.
Next, I say: I intend for you to take me to your IB realm, now.
(I like to use its energy like that. Why not?)
Things in the dream change, I feel like I fly with great speed ahead and down a slight angle.
I just relax.
Now I am in a different dream now, I can sense it. The ally is to my left, behind me. It is dark and I see nothing. No
seeing yet, as I don't want to spend too much energy.
Take me to the center of your realm, now.
(when asked, this ally explained to me in one of the previous dreaming sessions that there, in the center where all their knowledge is present, the energy is most dense, intense. So, since then, I always go there.)
Vision changes and I perceive a familiar scene, a huge vortex of bright red, light blue and golden energy in an even bigger dark blue circle, powering up or emitting energy high up.
It is a beautiful sight to behold.
I move to the center of the vortex by myself and start to absorb energy as the ally has shown me. I am not intending to receive their knowledge, just energy.
I can feel the
dreaming body building-up energy, I feel more awake and present. Memories of some unrelated dreams surface at that point.
After a while, it hits me, I suddenly remember: the Mayans!
Keeping my double in the energy vortex, I think for a while and start asking the ally:
Are you familiar with the Mayans?
I am yes.
Do you know any Mayan directly?
No.
Do you know where their world is located?
Yes, I do.
Are you able to move my AP to perceive their world?
Yes.
And move it back if needed?
Yes.
Then I remember my supposed link to the Mayans and ran it all by it:
Are you familiar with the concept of human reincarnation?
Yes.
Was I at any point in my overall existence part of Maya society?
Yes. You were their priest/leader at one time.
(So it is true. I remember at that point how I did research after that particular regression into previous lives and found out that indeed Maya had unique 'governmental' structure: their leaders were priests/shamans also, two roles in one.)
Now, I feel happy and really looking forward to meeting them. I have always felt the link to Mayans, even as a kid. In fact, one of the first books I read as a kid was about Mayans.
Energy rises up at that point.
I continue:
Is their world a complete realm or their shared dreaming?
It is a complete realm.
How are they, hostile, welcoming?
They welcome anyone who is not a threat to them.
What is their realm like?
Wait and see.
It did not answer me at all, so I repeated my question.
It said after a while:
At first a bit strange and when they
see you, they let you in.
I thought for a few moments how to get more info I wanted.
Are you familiar with the concept of a nagual person?
Yes.
Are nagual persons amongst Maya?
Yes, many.
Are they capable, skillful sorcerers?
Very much so.
What are their top five skills?
1. They can kill anyone on the spot.
2. They have completely mastered the manipulation of APs. They can move anyone's AP to any location within or without and fix it there firmly. Forever, if they choose to.
3. They live eternally, they are beyond death. They are self-sufficient, free, immortal.
4. They are the unsurpassed shape-shifters.
5. They are the supreme magicians, healers, seers.
Hearing this, my interest in them grew even more.
They can kill anyone?
Yes, they were Lantians once upon a time.
Death defiers?
Yes.
Now they are not anymore?
No. They have altered their path a long time ago...
...they are well beyond the reach of the black death defiers now.
I noticed at that point that it has just commented on my thoughts. I was thinking about whether they have the dark death defiers on their backs...
I let it go this time, to my benefit.
At that moment an interesting thing happened. Partly, I was aware of my dreaming body still hovering in the energy vortex at the center of the IB realm, and at the same time, I started to perceive two magnificent jaguars cuddling and looking at me from up close.
The feeling was very familiar, it felt like home.
I did not ask the ally about it and it didn't comment.
Now, however, when I revisit that AP position, I understand that I was perceiving the future.
Having spent a long time in the IB vortex, I felt powerful and awake.
On an impulse from within, I voiced the intent for IB to take me to the world of the Giant trees.
I will omit the dreaming of that world for now.
So after all the events took place there, I decided that I was ready (stable, clear of the dark energy, lucid) to go to the Maya realm.
I voiced my intent for the ally to move my AP to perceive the place where Maya dwell.
At first, nothing happened. I stopped internal chat and in a few moments, I started flying up the giant tree with great speed. Those trees are really huge, it took some time to get above them. I looked back and saw how the top of the trees are completely intertwined, protecting that world.
* * *
That vision changed completely and I started to descend to some darker place. I landed on a 5m or 16ft wide forest path that led into the thick jungle.
The feeling was light, I sensed no danger. It was a magnificent old forest, overflowing with life, fully alive, lush and fertile, so full of life energy.
Just at the entrance into the forest there were standing two great looking jaguars.
They just stood there, calmly looking in my direction.
I took a few steps towards them and stopped. I knelt down, showed my bare hands, palms open and lowered my look, trying to communicate I've got nothing to hide.
For a few moments nothing happened, then I looked up, amazed, as they transformed into two at least 6.2 tall, young, muscular Indians with penetrating glowing eyes! Their presence was powerful, they shined un-denying impeccability.
"Mayans!", I thought, feeling awe and joy as well.
They said nothing, they both politely made a welcoming gesture, each with one hand, inviting me in. I felt welcomed.
I joyfully walked (it was a very real
dreaming, it was as if I were physically there) between them into the vibrant forest.
And after a few more steps...
...everything transformed by itself, opened up and in no time I stood on a cliff overlooking a Maya Golden City!
I just stood there, wide awake and marveled at the purity, power, and clarity of the City. Just by looking at it made me even more present and lucid.
The architecture was nothing I have ever seen in
dreaming. Nor some backward wooden huts neither futuristic and modern. And everything, everything was covered with (made from?) yellow gold.
I just stood there, trying to grasp the significance and importance of that
dreaming.
While standing there, pondering, I sensed some movement behind and before I could react a beautiful jaguar jumped me from behind and gently pushed me over the cliff, touching me on the shoulder blades.
Her touch shifted AP a bit (I see that now) so I could clearly perceive what was to follow.
We both softly landed on the wide golden plateau at least 250ft beneath the cliff.
I stood up and looked over at the jaguar who in the meantime rolled over to her back, showing me her belly. I understood she wanted me to stroke her gently like she was a pet.
I got down to the golden floor and started to gently stroke the jaguar with both hands. Her fur was so soft and warm and we both enjoyed it, it seemed.
I was completely caught up in the moment, forgetting everything. Only that magnificent jaguar existed for me.
(as I now reflect these experiences, I see that the jaguar was volunteering me her energy while I was stroking her gently; obviously, she knew that I have no energy of my own left to continue the dreaming; inorganic energy is of no use in Maya worlds. Without the substantial help from the Maya, it is not possible to stay with them, it seems.)
I was 'awoken' from the enjoyment by some movement in front of us.
I looked up and saw an older (maybe in her sixties) but beautifully vibrant and tall Indian woman approaching. She was in the center and around her four powerful jaguars were slowly walking.
"My mother", I heard from behind.
I turned back and instead of the jaguar, there was a lovely, black-haired Indian girl in her twenties. Her eyes were dark blue and glowing.
"My mother",
she repeated, pointing with her right hand into the direction of the Indian lady, escorted by four great jaguars.
The transformation of the jaguar into a young girl did not at all strike me as odd.
The lady said: "Atisha", looking pointedly at the girl.
Atisha smiled and explained that her mother is one of the most important sorceresses in their society. They all referred to her as the Sorceress Supreme.
Without thinking, I dropped down, lowering my look as before, not to express submission, but to communicate my respect and openness.
She started speaking so I looked up. She was looking directly into my eyes, smiling. I heard her speak but all I could understand
(and all I can now remember) was:
"We
saw you were coming here. Welcome.
You can not stay here forever. You can, however, come here as often as you want and stay here as long as you like, but you can not become one of us."
My cognitive abilities were not functioning as I am used to, but I was clearly aware that she was not playing me as an IB would. She was expressing her thoughts very clearly. I could sense that her intention was good, benevolent.
"As a gesture of good faith, and, since you are connected to our people, I would like to present you with a gift, a gift of power."
I remembered all the talk about gifts of power from Castaneda books and how the dark death defier manipulated the naguals of that Lineage. I sensed a slight aversion rising up.
But then I changed my mind. The Sorceress Supreme asked nothing in return, she was not a black death defier or some low astral spirit.
"She is a Maya, c'mon!", I thought to myself.
I expressed my gratitude for their welcome and for letting me come to their eternal realm. She smiled.
I accept your gift, whatever it is, I said.
"To move among us and to stay with us, you will need a jaguar form.", she said.
She made a horizontal waving move with her right hand in front of her from the height of her head down to her waist.
I again felt that everything was changing, this time within me. Surroundings stayed the same, my form, however, transformed into a powerful jaguar.
I remained lucid, I was aware I was still me, but the form was completely altered. I felt more agile, fast, more powerful, down to earth, brave, with unbending intent.
A thought ran through my mind that I have to fixate this new position of AP. It was just a thought, though. The Sorceress fixated the AP for me, completely.
I was a jaguar!
"Growl!", I heard her say, and so I did.
As I looked to my left, there was a jaguar again, not a girl. I turned to face her and we cuddled for a while, and then ran off together to the left past some golden buildings... and I don't remember much about that part of the dream
(I can imagine what you are thinking right now, but I really don't remember what transpired).
After some time I found myself again in front of the Maya Sorceress Supreme. She made a reversed move with her hand, this time from the height of her waist up, and I slowly transformed back to human form.
Atisha was there too, in human form.
The Sorceress said that my visit was over for now and stressed that I can come back anytime I want.
She then made a short gesture with her left wrist towards me and I was just blown back as a dry twig, over the cliff through the entrance and out of the old forest...and then everything went black.
After I returned to my body, I could easily remember the dream. Everything was still very alive in me.
I checked with dreaming emissary and it commented on a few details. Regarding the gift of power, it said that my body would remember how to change back into the jaguar form.
* * *
I consider this dreaming very precious and important. It revealed a lot about me, my path and Nagualism (quest for Freedom) in general.
I can't wait to go back there. But first I will discuss this
dreaming with my teacher.
